Vacation State of Mind

I’m celebrating because I’m on vacation, in BERMUDA! I wanted to take a minute to share with you my intention/strategy for this trip.

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Vacation used to be a total free-for-all. I’d eat whatever I wanted, as much as I wanted because, hey, ‘it’s vacation’. The problem was, I’d feel awful. Heavy. Tired. Self-conscious.

I’d come home feeling like I had to crawl out of a hole I dug for myself. It sucked. It wasn’t worth it and I didn’t have as much fun as I could have because the trip was clouded by thoughts about food and food choices. No bueno.

Then, I swung in the opposite direction. For a couple years, I sat on the sidelines. I was militant about my work, my workouts and my food choices. Sure, I was rested and my energy was great, but I was using “structure” as a barrier to connection and experience.

I told myself this story that indulging equals fun and not indulging equals not fun.

Fortunately, I now realize that’s total BS. It’s not either/or. And if it feels like it is, you’re doing it wrong.

I can eat in a way that makes me feel amazing AND really treat myself AND enjoy every bite of food that passes my lips without missing out. It’s really all about the story you tell yourself and the perspective you choose. There is always another way. Dozens of other ways. I will be looking for foods I will LOVE and enjoy eating that will also make me feel amazing (helllllllo ceviche & fresh fish!)

I see every day as an opportunity to enjoy life more and live in alignment with what I want most, so I thought I’d take a few minutes to share my perspective on this trip.

First – I want to feel amazing every single day. I want to feel happy, lighthearted, present, confident and energized.

My first step is to get clear on what kinds of things will make me feel that way and what kinds of things won’t make me feel that way.


Get lots of sleep
Journal every morning
Sweat every day
Play every day – prioritize FUN and connection
Drink lots of water


Make choices that make me feel crappy
Submit to insecurity. Sexy is in how you carry yourself and drama ain’t sexy.
Work too much
Take anything too seriously

There’s a real simple filter I’ll put my choices through: will this make me feel amazing? If it’s not a hell yes, it’s a no. Maybe a bite of the dessert will make me feel amazing but having the whole thing is a NO.

Yes, I’ll work every day. I’ve set boundaries for myself that work is between 5am-10am.

Yes, I’ll drink alcohol. I’ll only choose drinks that are really worth it and I won’t have more than 1 drink per day. (More than that and I’m likely to not feel how I want to feel.)

Yes, I might indulge in sugar, but only if it’s worth it and only in a way that still allows me to feel how I want to feel (amazing). (As long as the internet connection is good, I plan to post everything I eat/drink on my IG stories)

However, my biggest focus isn’t on work, workouts, food or alcohol. It’s about connection.

Worrying about how I look in a bathing suit does NOT foster connection with the boyfriend. In fact, it’s a barrier to it. So, I’ll be choosing PRESENCE over projection.

Worrying about the emails that come in at 11am won’t help me connect with the boyfriend. That would be a barrier to connection, so I’ll keep my attention on the moment we’re in.

While these are my vacation practices, they’re also totally applicable to TODAY! To this week at work! For your dinner out tomorrow or absolutely any other time so try them on for size!

I asked you guys over in the Primal Potential FB group if you wanted to hear about podcast about the trip & the strategy in action and the answer was a resounding ‘yes’ so be sure to stay tuned for that soon!

Oh! And don’t forget that I’m doing free weekly coaching videos for everyone who is on the wait list for the summer 12 WT! Here’s a link to get on the wait list if you aren’t on it already!

Year of Push 2.1 Sniffles & Sushi

Hey guys, if you’re new to these posts, listen to this podcast episode to get the scoop on what changes I’m making in my life and you can start back at my first daily post here.

It’s officially the 2nd month or 5th week of my year of push – intentionally living outside my comfort zone to reach my full potential.

Quick update: I’m still sick but I’m feeling better.

I had a terrible time sleeping (more accurately: not sleeping) this weekend so I really tried to dial up the relaxation.

Saturday I had a deep tissue massage & Sunday I spent an hour in a sensory-deprivation flotation tank.

I posted a picture of the flotation tank on Instagram & got a ton of questions about it so I thought I’d share a bit more here.

So – this is not a body composition assessment tool. It’s a small amount of HIGHLY salted water that you float in for the purposes of physical and mental relaxation.

It’s dark. It’s a closed space (though there are many that are open, not closed, if closed spaces aren’t your jam) and the high concentration of salt allows you to float without effort.

The particular tank I used is only about 9 inches of water but in that 9″ is about 900 pounds of dissolved Epsom Salt.

It’s luke-warm, just slightly above room temperature, which is also conducive to relaxation.

In addition to relaxation, it’s also said to help with sleep. I can attest to this. I have been massively struggling with sleep (I literally slept for ZERO minutes on Saturday night) and after floating for an hour yesterday, I went to bed at 9pm and didn’t wake up until 7:30am. I’m a freakin’ happy camper about that! That’s essentially unheard of for me!

While I was in there, I used the time to meditate & visualize. I did fall asleep in the water for about 5 minutes at the end.

I can’t tell you the last time I didn’t speak or look at my phone for an hour. This was VERY good for me on every level. 

I noticed this morning when I woke up that all my muscle soreness was gone & my body felt really great!

I’ll absolutely be going back!

Okay, back to the fact that it’s the beginning of a new month!

My goals for this second month include:

  • Making sleep a top priority every day
  • 20 minutes of daily meditation (this is a big jump from my usual 5-10 and it’s AMAZING though challenging
  • Drop 1 pant size
  • Do something fun every day (even it that is as simple as a single-song dance party in my kitchen)

I did get in my workout today though I’m still moving at about 50-60% capacity to avoid further stressing my body.

Here’s the workout from today:

“Row & Go”
4 Rounds:
Min 1: 1 Round of Strict Cindy
Min 2: 15/12 Calorie Row
Min 3: Max Clean and Jerks (135/95#)

Cindy, for those who aren’t familiar with the named CrossFit workouts, is 5 pull-ups, 10 push-ups and 15 body weight squats.

So, in the first minute, you’re doing that. 

In the second minute, a 12 calorie row (15 for the dudes). 

In the third minute, as many clean & jerks as you can with 95 lbs (135 for the guys). 

That is repeated 4 times, for a total of a 12 minute workout. This was done after about 30-40 minutes of warm up and some foam rolling I did before the warm up.

I’ll adjust my workouts as needed until I’m feeling up to snuff.

On the food front:

Being under the weather has impacted my appetite. I’m just not that hungry. As I type this, it’s 3pm and I haven’t yet eaten. I usually have lunch around 2 but I’m just not in the mood.

Tonight is a different story though. It’s sushi night. And honestly, I’m okay skipping lunch for sushi and sashimi for dinner! (It’s not all for me.)

Bring on all the sushi & sashimi (and water)!

I’m super curious – do you have a fave sushi roll? It’s hard for me to find one I don’t like though I’m not a fan of cream cheese or anything fried in my sushi.

I’m still really prioritizing water, which I think also keeps my hunger at bay.