Today I posted this quote on Instagram.

“Unhappiness is not knowing what you want & then killing yourself to get it.” ~ Don Herold

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I got this wrong for a long time. Especially with weight. For most of my life, all I wanted was to lose weight. I felt like everything would be better if I lost weight. My relationships would be better, I’d be happier, more confident, more outgoing….more more more.
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When I lost weight, none of those things changed.

Losing weight just means you weigh less. If you aren’t happy at 300 lbs, losing 100 lbs won’t make you happy.

Just like if you aren’t happy with 100K in debt, paying down your debt won’t make you happy.

Losing weight, getting more fit, paying down debt…those are the trappings of success, things that often go along with success, but they are not success itself.

Fortunately, I eventually found what I really want.

I want to be confident. I want to be happy. I want to feel peaceful in my own life.  For a long time, I thought smaller thighs would naturally bring those things. I was wrong.

Smaller thighs gives you smaller thighs. Nothing more, nothing less.

If you want other things, you have to do THAT work.

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About any goal, ask yourself, “Why do I want this? What do I think will be better about my life if I achieve this thing?

Don’t rush through those questions because that’s where the magic is. ⠀⠀
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Then, about your choices, you can ask yourself, “Does this choice give me what I really want? Does this choice or this behavior make me feel more confident or less? Happier or less happy? At peace with myself or battling against myself?

That is where you’ll find true transformation. ⠀

I slept in this morning. I almost never do that. In fact, yesterday (Sunday), I woke up at 3:30am to make sure I could get in a full “day” of work before the football game.

But today I chose sleep. Instead of leaving for the gym at 7am, I was still working through emails.

I thought about not working out but knew, as always, that I’d feel better after a workout so I hit the gym around noon.

It was my kind of workout: barbells only!

Power Snatch 
Build to Heavy Single

followed by…

“Isabel”
For Time:
30 Power Snatches

My wrist was feeling kinda funky after Friday’s power cleans so I didn’t go as heavy as I had hoped, but it was still a good workout. More than that, it was a mental victory. I didn’t want to go & I did. I absolutely felt better afterwards.

On the food front:

My boobs are huge and belly feels so thick – related to the course of hormone injections over the past month. I just didn’t feel like eating much today. Ever had that thick & blah feeling? I wasn’t punishing my body by not eating, I didn’t feel legit hunger until about 4pm. Since I have dinner plans in Boston at 8:30 (yes, that is super late for me), I decided to keep fasting until then. Had I eaten at 4pm, I wouldn’t have been hungry for sushi.

For more on “legit hunger” listen to the short anchor broadcast from today.

I am not entirely sure what I’ll have at the sushi restaurant, but I’m sure it will be a combination of sushi & sashimi. No booze.

See you tomorrow! Make the rest of your day the best of your day!