In the next couple of weeks, I’m going to record a podcast episode about the biggest lessons I’ve learned in 4 years of business, but today, I just want to ramble from my heart, about my morning.
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I am overflowing with gratitude, optimism and peace.
Today is my 35th birthday. It’s also Primal Potential’s 4th anniversary and the 500th episode of the Primal Potential podcast. Last night, I wrapped up the first draft of my first book.
I woke up this morning and walked to the beach. I got to the water around 4:30am. The first light of day had already broke and for a moment, I thought, “I missed it.”
I missed daybreak. I wanted to be on the sand when the first light broke through, but it had already happened. My mind raced forward into tomorrow and I wondered what time I’d have to be on the beach to be there for that moment.
“Be here now“, I told myself.
I walked. I watched. It got increasingly beautiful.
As I walked and jogged, soaking in the sunrise, I thought about my birthday. I thought about how different my life was 4 years ago on the day Primal Potential launched. I was married then, living a very different life in North Carolina.
This isn’t what I thought my life would look like at 35. If you had asked me four years ago, I’d have told you that I’d have kids now. That my book would be released into the world. I would have told you a lot of things that would have been wrong.
I started to wonder what my life will look like at 36 and at 40.
Then, I stopped. I just stopped.
I realized that I was reflecting on my life the way I had reflected on my first impression of the sunrise this morning. I was convincing myself that I had missed something.
But, in doing that, in choosing to look backwards and forwards, I was missing what was right here, right now.
If you’ll be present for it, life, like the sunrise, becomes increasingly more beautiful.
If you convince yourself you’ve missed something or use your energy imagining where you’re be later, you’ll miss what is unfolding in front of you today.
Like today, it’s increasingly beautiful, if you allow yourself to watch it unfold.